Alright.. so I am back again. Seems to be less and less often I am writing in this now, but I have stuff on my mind again so I am here.

Where do I start this one... uhm... Have been having trouble with my car lately. Still not sure what exactly it is, the battery light is on at times.. but the battery and stuff has been checked already (so people can stop telling me to check the altinator.. that's getting annoying now) And.. It still squeaks. But, has been figured so far that it may be the fuel filters causing problems, but we'll need to bring it back in to get that done because they're hard to get at in this engine. The only problem is I have been really busy with work lately so it's hard to have a dying car.. or no car at all.

Also, I need to do chem. 11 & 12 at some point whether I end up doing the software engineering or not. But I have been thinking, the best reason I could want money, is to disappear. I want to not have to work a day to day schedule, I want the freedom to leave wherever and whenever I want. Without anyone knowing where I am, when I will be back or if I am even still alive. It's just.. I think I would be happy if I could just pack a bag and leave for awhile.. whether I was just driving a few towns over, across the country or flying around the world. I don't like the idea of trying to be successful to try to impress anyone, because I don't feel that I could. Nothing that I want to do will ever be good enough to make everyone that matters think I am doing well. So they can think what they want of me when and if I can just live happily, otherwise there is no reason to live in the first place.

Anyways.. I have been *trying* to get what I want done.. but it's difficult.

Oh, and I HATE the summer heat already... and sort of got distracted so this is the end of what I am writing this time. Going to try and get something 'useful' done. Which I wont.

~Ghost~ 11:00 PM